Saturday, July 11, 2009

100 Things

  1. food
  2. water
  3. clean water
  4. cell phone
  5. internet
  6. clean clothes
  7. toothpaste
  8. money
  9. car
  10. heat
  11. gas
  12. love
  13. friends
  14. strawberry smoothies
  15. hummus
  16. TV
  17. health
  18. a good bra
  19. pedicure
  20. smiles from passing strangers
  21. My God Children
  22. Lye -- as in the kind you perm your hair with :)
  23. Sonya -- my beautician to surgically apply the lye
  24. OB Tampons
  25. frequent flyer miles
  26. Toms Toothpaste
  27. Deodorant
  28. God
  29. Music
  30. My Mac
  31. 4 inch heels
  32. Remote 
  33. My Mom
  34. Navigation
  35. Yellow Legal Pads
  36. Sex
  37. Eye glasses
  38. Instant Messenger
  39. White Gap T-shirts
  40. Green well worn head scarf
  41. Peoples Court
  42. Good Books
  43. Butter
  44. My brother
  45. Camera
  46. Education
  47. Bible
  48. Travel
  49. Meditation
  50. Orange kool-aid with Lemon juice
  51. Thongs
  52. Two pillows
  53. Toilet paper
  54. Birth Control Pills
  55. Merlot
  56. Hell - Any Alcohol!
  57. Vision
  58. 400 thread count
  59. Freedom
  60. Google
  61. My reputation
  62. Dajuan
  63. Refrigeration
  64. Furnace
  65. Fan
  66. Power
  67. Stimulation conversation
  68. Sunglasses
  69. Fresh flowers
  70. Blogger
  71. Conscience
  72. Youtube
  73. Common Sense
  74. Fruit
  75. Clean Water
  76. Shower
  77. Facebook
  78. Lulako
  79. My Dad
  80. People Magazine
  81. Pictures
  82. A good mattress
  83. Blood
  84. Insurance
  85. Atlas
  86. Perfume
  87. Good will
  88. Rosemary
  89. Love
  90. Family
  91. Martini
  92. Peace of Mind
  93. All 4 seasons
  94. The laughter of children
  95. clean water
  96. My fellow PAP's
  97. Eyebrow Arch
  98. Clean water
  99. Humanitarian spirit
  100. Clean water
Imagine 100 things that you CAN NOT LIVE with out

Now imagine living without ANY of them!

100 Things.... 
can you give 100  -- little/ inexpensive/ insignificant to you  -- things --- 
to someone that doesn't have those things that I can't live without?

I have a daughter in Africa.  I am going to get her in a month.  I am collecting 100 THINGS.... I have lofty goal set to get my baby.  Failure is not an option.  Because at 6 months she has lost more than I will every gain....

100% is the only options.....

More to Follow!



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Friday, July 3, 2009



Although this picture is a not the most current pic, its one of my favorites. Its like she is saying.... "um yeah... whatever!"

Yes I passed court. Sorry for the cryptic message in the last post. I felt it was important to post that because I had been working on it but I never finished it. But I wanted everyone to know my Babycakes is headed to the US of A!



Thursday, July 2, 2009

Faith not Fear

This post was previously written on 6/19/09 but I never finished it

So ya'll know I'm very kool, kalm and kollective right? WRONG... Last week I completely lost it!!!!

See what had happened was .....

I was blessed with this video from Amy E from her travels in early May, and i could never open it. So out of the blue one night Amy gets it fixed up and sends it to me. Now ya'll should know that Catrina is a video maniac and has been waiting on Lulu's video since way before she got her own referral. So any way I open of the video...1 minute and like 3 seconds....and I am completely torn. I mean is this my baby... can this be my daughter? She is so tiny, so helpless. Is she sick... is she OKAY????? I mean Lulu was VERY tiny when I got her referral and she is growing SOOOOOO slowly.

All the thoughts that run thru your head... its just overwhelming. I'm talking 5 days before court and am I really RECONSIDERING!!! SECOND GUESSING!!!! or God forbid REGRETTING?!?!?!?!?!

Can I take care of a sick baby?

Man, i just did not want to think about this. So I just got really really quiet. I think that EVERY parent worries about the health of their baby. Regardless if you give birth to a child or if you adopt a child, the fear of the unknown is VERY great. The problem is this. There are a ton of birth parents that discuss these fears. With their family, their doctor, their friends -- a therapist). They do extra test and obsess over the ultrasounds, they prepare a special diet and stay out of the way of smokers. But adoptive parents, we don't have the luxury of taking all of these precautions. We don't have the luxury of holding our little one and and assessing all the fingers and all the toes. This is obviously the first thing that a mother does after birth (not like she can send Baby back...). We require the same reassurances. So we rely on the monthly reports, the pictures, and the short 1 minute videos. And we assess. I'm telling you... I was not pleased with what I was seeing. I was terrified actually.

Added on 7/02/09

Enter my partner in crime Celeste  . So I reluctantly sent the video to Celeste (not Catrina, she's too perky lol). And Celeste instantly heightened my fears. Celeste and I have made this journey from the beginning and we have had some real heart to heart talks, so we know each others breaking point.

Well to make a long story short, after me and Celeste acted like complete maniacs, enter Valarie.....who traveled across the world to check on my little Lulu!!!

Say Hello to Lulako

Now Riddle me this...........