I remember the hysteria around that time. I remember the feeling of hopelessness, incompleteness and overall sadness. I remember all of the very kind words from strangers. I saw so many people searching for a situation and I became a sort of guru of information about who, what, when and where you could go to possibly still be accepted into the ever closing window. I made my decision immediately. I would be still and wait until I could hear the voice of God. I stated very matter of factly to others that despite having other options (domestic) I would stand still until March or April. And then I would decide. I spoke to many friends who could not see any good coming out of waiting. But I didn't have ONE DIME to move to another agency and more than half of my fees had been paid. I just had to wait.
On April 1, 2009, I received a call from agency saying we would have a conference call for singles only. On April 2nd I was told that single parent adoption would be resumed and I was NUMBER 2 on the list waiting for a referral!!!!!!
And on April 9th I met Lulako Daniso!!
So much fear so much anxiety... but the first glimpse of my beautiful daughter (beautiful now but I wasn't so sure then!)
A lot had to happen to make this a reality. And for each and EVERY step I am so VERY THANKFUL!!!!!!!
- For the extended wait time... so that I could be matched to THIS little girl
- For the many friends that understood because they were going thru the same thing
- For the family that supported me
- For God for having vision over my life
"They" said it couldn't happen. But IT DID.
I am praying today for Celeste who is still waiting for her girls and for Tami who is still waiting to see her girl.
But guess what EVERY ONE OF MY SINGLE BUDDY's PULLED IT OFF!!!!
Girls last year was bad... but this year we are full of thanks and praise!
**** sorry for the late post!!!!