Blind Faith

I think everyone has heard some rendition of this story, I can't take credit for it, but I want to share it.

A family that was short on cash and had no food in the house. The family began
to believe God to supply food for them that day.
The husband came in the kitchen and told his wife to set the table. She said,
“Honey, we have no food!” He told her to set the table anyway. She reluctantly set the
table with plates, glasses, spoons, forks, napkins, and everything. She set the table just
like she was about to serve a normal meal.
The husband, wife, and their small son sat down at the table and looked at the
empty plates. The little boy was, of course, very hungry. He looked at his dad and
asked, “What are we going to eat?”
His father replied, “Son the Lord will take care of us, you’ll see.”
The little boy asked the same question, several times, and received the same reply
from his dad. Soon, the little boy said, “I sure would love to have a chocolate pie.”
Once again, his dad told him that the Lord would provide. Just a few moments
later, there was a knock on the door. The father went to open the door and there was a
man standing there with a basket of food. He said, “My wife cooked too much food, and
the Lord said for me to bring this basket to you.”
When they opened the basket, they found chicken, mashed potatoes, corn, beans,
and bread; and last of all, they removed a chocolate pie.
Sometimes in our lives we have to trust God right down to the last second. But
God knows exactly how to take care of us. He can provide exactly what we need. He
provides not only the meals we need, but He cares enough to send a chocolate pie to a
little hungry boy.

I know I have been quiet.  And I know I stopped my count down because I was given some news that caused me to feel disappointed and defeated.  But I was asked by a dear friend to keep counting.  Keep looking with anticipation and to "set the table".  (Thanks Celeste).  I posted a few weeks ago about a really really challenging situation that I was enduring and I felt so much love and support from those that posted and prayed or prayed and didn't post.  I just knew I had more warriors standing beside me then I even knew possible.   I am so pleased to announce that my situation was resolved and although I was postponed a little I am back on track.  But this is the thing... that postponement actually worked so well within my life that everything else shifted into place.  

I'm real big on analogies so let me say this.  I ran track in high school (and not one time since lol) and  runners know that everyone starts in their own lane at a different spot but the distance is the same.   Well, I was still on the track, I could see the finish line, but I was in the wrong lane! God slowed me down and got me back on track!  Because trust me... you don't want to come in first and not be in the right lane.  That's right disqualified!   Thank you everyone for praying for me and with me.  

So with that being said, and back by popular demand (ok, not really), I will continue to count.  Because although my adoption may be delayed, I have not been disqualified.  I don't know what's gonna happen when I get up there in the numbers lol.  Maybe I'll start counting old boyfriends, that will get me thru about 100 weeks!  

I saw this on a friends page, and I just need to say, PRAISE HIM IN ADVANCE.   Because my daughter is coming home.

TTYL Robbin

Oh Give Thanks

Hello Friends, I just wanted to stop in and give Thanksgiving wishes!  I have so much to be thankful for and I am reminded that this world wide web has put so much of the world within my reach.  I have met so many friends along the way and gained knowledge that has helped to destroy the many myths perpetuated by the media.   I thought about this and wanted to share it, its a blast from the past but fitting!






BTW, I am ever hopeful that single mother adoptions in Ethiopia will not be limited. I know that this is not in my hands (thank goodness cause I would surely mess it up) but I just have a real good feeling that something is gonna break......

TTYL

Robbin

Thank you

"The sun will come out....tomorrow.  Betcha bottom dollar that... tomorrow.... there'll be sun!"

In the voice of Annie.  Our favorite orphan.  Who never lost hope!  And had some fun along the way.

Thank you EVERYONE that sent sweet words of encouragement.   I will blog about this soon as I know all the inside info.... in true Robbin Fashion.

TTYL 

Robbin

Adoption Postponed

I'm not sure how I will deal with how I am feeling right now...... There are no words.

Step 1 -- I shut down all my Yahoo groups.  Getting 100's of emails about adoption is more than I can endure.  

TTYL

Robbin

Get it while its hot!

Somebody that I know was told by someone that they know that was told by their cousins aunt who heard that..........

Just kidding.   You know how I purchased my car seat a few months back and was so pleased about the deal I got on ebay?   ( I think I talked about it.... Britax, for 180.00 including shipping and retails for 250.00).  Well this trumps that deal by about 1000%!  And since I needed two car seats, I ran over and purchased another! 

That's right!  A Britax car seat for 42.00!!!!!!!!!!!  This is amazing, too good to be true and I am waiting on my, "April Fool's email".  In November.

I purchased mine and didn't have to get the "moo moo" one which is also a steal at 59.00.  And they both have free shipping..... no kidding.  Check it out for yourself !  I feel like I hit the lottery!!!  And it won't be here until December.  Until then, I will be keeping my fingers crossed.

TTYL Robbin

OOPS Week 19

sorry to all those "blog-reader-people"   I cheated.  Its week 19!   

Friends

"I really don't think life is about the I-could-have-beens. Life is only about the I-tried-to-do. I don't mind the failure but I can't imagine that I'd forgive myself if I didn't try.”

Nikki Giovanni

Adoption  will test your patience, will, commitment, tenacity and faith.  But you learn so much along the way!



TTYL Robbin

Age 18

Here are a few of my pictures from graduation day.   I am with my friend Kellae who's wedding I went to here.  Unfortunately, my grandmother had passed away on prom night and so I was whisked off from graduation and off to Louisiana for her funeral so I didn't really get to spend any time with my graduating friends.

I lived in a small town and so they came up with this great ideal of combining both the graduation from both schools together.  This is my cousin Tanisha who graduated from the other school.  ALL of my friends attended the other school so I was excited to be with the ppl I better connected to.  To this day, I definitely am closer to the students at the other school and participate in far more alumni events with them.  Because my super popular brother was at the other school ppl for some reason thought I attended there as well!

TTYL

Robbin

oops Sunday post

My Sunday post didn't come up on Sunday it came on Saturday, because I tried to auto post.  Sorry blogger reader ppl, this is another post about NOTHING!!!!!  Just trying to keep up with the Blog post month thingy.

Robbin

Week 18

Senior pictures

Ok, these are some of my many several hundred dollars worth of senior proofs.   Clearly my mother allowed me way to much latitude.  When I looked at the nearly 50 proofs in my book I just had to crack up.  My mother believed in independence.  I picked my own outfits, my own picture package and went to take my pictures ALONE.  So I even have one with my boyfriend.... the same guy in the prom pics.  The jean picture is sporting the famous airbrush of the 90's lol.  Said boyfriend was the artist and on the butt section was both of his hands and it said "hands off".  Right.......  Thank goodness I don't have that in my senior pics.  

TTYL

Robbin

Age 17 Pics!

   Of course this is taken at the beginning of my senior year hence 17! 

 My date

Pics Coming!

Because I was suppose to scan my graduation photos and I didn't I have to just type something!!! Cause remember I'm taking the blog challenge.   So here it is.  Today was beautiful in Michigan.  About 70 degrees!  My super sweet mom put even more lights outside for me so that I can have a well lit yard... like my neighbors.   So maybe I can capture a picture of that..... 

Hmm.  I'm bored too!

TTYL Robbin

Well Tupac.....Now we are!

NAS:

What's the black pres thinking on election night,
Is it how can i protect my life? Protect my wife? Protect my rights?
Every other president was nothing less than white,
Except Thomas Jefferson a mixed Indian blood and Calvin Coolidge,
Kkk is like what the fu*k, loading they guns up, loading up mines to,
Ready to ride coz I'm riding with my crew, he dies we die too,
Yea but on a positive side, i think Obama provides hope,
And challenges minds or all races and colours,
To erase hate, and try to love one another, so many political snakes,
We in need of a break, I'm thinking I can trust this brother,
But will he keep it way real, every innocent nigga in jail get shot up in the field?
When he wins will he really care still? I feel

YES WE CAN!!!!!

TTYL   Robbin

Red or Blue?

Tonight's the night!

TTYL Robbin

Age 17

  I think I have quite a few pictures from this age, so I will do them a little at a time to cover my post from "yesterday!".   

This is my PROM picture.   My lovely dress was $50.00 from Alvyn's Bridal shop and my shoes were $100.00 from Ganto's  (remember them!)   I still have my dress and when I can fit a size 4 again, I will wear it again!  I WILL wear it AGAIN!!!!

TTYL   Robbin

National Blog Posting Month

Okay, here is my post for the day.  I don't know about being able to do this every day.  At least I can back date and therefore cheat my way thru the already voluntary exercise :(  

TTYL   ROBBIN

Oops Week 16 pictures

In the midst of my major breakdown, I forgot to put this out there!

week 17

  this picture reflects how I feel as the time passes.   Almost like a robot.  No emotions.  Just passing thru the motions.  Just waiting.

TTYL Robbin

Revelation 3:8

I know your deeds.  See, I have placed before you an open door that no one can shut.  I know that you have little strength, yet you have kept my word and have not denied my name.  (NIV)

My friends, you may have noticed that my post have been limited to the count down and my pictures.  One of my friends in Texas is a reader of my blog and she asked me to PLEASE write a decent post.  I realized that I am just waiting... waiting .... waiting.....   And I have been quiet.  Very quiet.   I have been struggling with some very scary life events.  Situations that good or bad can be hurtful, disappointing, and embarrassing.  I have been quiet for the fear that if I open my mouth I will be unable to find my voice.  To explain. To ask for forgiveness. To ask for help.

2008 has been a doozy!   Anyone close to me knows that I have hidden my head in the sand refusing to deal with some very hurtful acts of betrayal.  But, with the prayers of some very close friends and some very wise strangers, I moved into a different phase of my life.  I moved forward in my dreams to become a mommy.  I know many people were shocked when I made this decision, but I thank God that EVERYONE close to me has accepted and are excited about where I am.

Unfortunately, although God holds our future, and knows what will become, we are given freewill and are actions, inactions and reactions will have consequences.   Despite God's greatest hopes for us to seek his face and follow him and allow him to direct our paths, often we take our own route.  And for that we will have consequences.   If only we could say "Lord, I'm sorry, my bad...." and all of the repercussions would be erased, wouldn't that be magnificent?  What I do know is that no matter what... it will all turn out for good, according to God's purpose and plan.

In the coming days, I am faced with the repercussions of my own actions, inactions, and reactions.  There was a point where I had given up and things were left uncared for and unresolved.  It has put in jeopardy somethings that I worked hard to achieve.  

I am a very talkative person, and I have rarely met a stranger.  I had the opportunity to have two completely different conversations recently that made an impact on my outlook.   The first conversation happened when I changed my insurance policy.  The agent that helped me was as chatty as me and very witty.  He kept me on the phone for 2 HOURS!   And somewhere in there I decided to share with him a secret that I have not shared with many people.  I don't have any ideal why.  I also shared with him that I was adopting a child.  Well later on in another conversation, the same guy was teasing me about my secret and I was pretty down about it and he told me that my future was already set and that I had to have endurance because "endurance is when the competition gives up and you are competing against yourself."   It was just what I needed to hear.  It just amazes me that God brings ppl in your life to be ready and in place to give you the motivation to keep moving forward.

The second conversation was with a girl that called about renting a property that I own.   Now the Michigan market is horrible and some landlords will rent to anybody.   I am blessed with a family that is very supportive of my ventures and I have been able to be more picky.  It hasn't been the most financially satisfying decision but it has been a well thought out one.  Anyway, so this girl starts telling me her story and I know almost immediately that I would not be able to rent to her.  But her name sounded familiar and I asked her if she knew me and although she didn't recognize my name, I knew who she was and she was actually a friend of mine in elementary.  I remember as a little girl that she had a really hard life so when she told me her story sadly it wasn't much different from what I expected.  She started to tell me why she was moving and how her landlord was going into foreclosure and yet still collecting rent and had filed for a money judgment against her in court.  I work as an extern in the court and I gave her detailed instructions on how to get back in front of the judge to resolve her situation.  She seemed grateful and shared with me that she was a single mom to 3 children but fighting to take custody of her 20 year old sister's infant twin sons.   Her sister had 6 children, the first died of SIDs and the others are 5, 3, 1 and the twin 2 month old boys.  They are now in foster care because of some injuries to the 5 year old.  The young lady works as a manager at KFC and had a very tight budget but yet she wanted desperately to try to get her nephews out of the system.  I was amazed by her tenacity.  I ended the conversation with the resolve that I will use my gifts to help others.  I will remember to speak for those that are ignored not because of what they say but how they say it.   I was challenged by her.  And I was reminded of my own struggle, to find my own tenacity.

In the coming days I am struggling with remembering that God holds my fate.  That God determines my path.  I must remind myself that he is the ultimate decision maker and what others may perceive as an opportunity to shut a door is NOTHING because God opened the door.   I must remind myself that my gifts are to be used to help others.  And that they will not be taken from me because they were given to me by God.

When I wake up in the middle of the night, afraid of what awaits me, I must remind myself that God has told me to fear not.  For each and every day, he has told me to FEAR NOT.  And it appears 365 times in the Bible.   Once for each day.  How magnificent is that?

 Its been a long time since I reached out  and I apologize if this post seem coded.   I ask all of my friends that read this to please pray with me and for me, that my situation will be settled in the coming days.  And that I remember to FEAR NOT.  

TTYL 

Robbin